Wednesday, October 14, 2009

This Is The End??

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It only lasted a short while. The trauma suffered took much of the fight, the humiliation some of my will but I hung on to my Dignity. I would not allow my dignity to be taken. Even now there are those where you look to as equals and friends as you attempt to put one bad chapter behind you and begin this “new” life? ....

I learn everyday many of those who enjoyed the “Real World” are not of the same mold of their parents whether white, black, Latino, Asian, rappers, birthers, etc... "Everyone Lies!" is one theorem scripted for HOUSE. Believe it. This is an X or a Y generation that may be just that; ‘X-rated’ and ‘Y the hell do they do’ all that...stuff?....

I learned again today that the manipulation of the truth still prospers. They put spins on the truth faster than “Rush” Limbaugh! My dilemma is whether to pursue those that persecute, violate my freedom and privacy and ‘use’ for what financial gain they can obtain thinking I am too stupid to know. I was stupid to give someone today more than one chance is foolish.

However, I remain foolish to believe that within everyone there is a greater good and a potential hero to emerge. I may be wrong.

I can pursue different avenues legally and otherwise perhaps. Will it change their attitude or behavior? I doubt that. If I grew up in today’s world I may be just the same. I can gear up for another large battle. I have fought them before. I prefer that people just come clean and believe me from day one they can trust me. I do my best not to prejudge others as I have been in my life. I do not ignore, but listen. I respect rather than pretend. I am not the beggar they label on the street. Still I believe it can be better and friendships like politics make strange bedfellows. ....

It is not the material loss I worry so much about. It is the fact they believe they can take anything from me and rub salt in my wounds. At the same time uttering at the table, "We thought you liked salt!" I just would like to have halfway truthful dialogue, without misdirection or turning 180 degrees overnight.

I can fight if need be, but it adds only to hard feelings and does not help me one iota. ....or sadly teach anything.

Today, I can no longer shout from a mountain or barely whisper in an ear.

I may, but they will not hear.....